I Want That Star

apparently, handphones are not the best inventions of all times.
received 2smses and 1 call during my sleep.
had a slight tummyache after waking up. then cannot sleep anymore :/

well, this is to encourage some of my dearest frens who reached troubles one time or another

It is possible to fail in many ways...while to succeed is possible only in one way.

Do not fear, we are all here for u. share with us ure woes and joys cos we are all together.
pray for dearest Max, Valerie and Shane.

well, talking about successes and failures, i do wish no one minds wat im about to talk from here on, be it hurtful or encouraging depends on how u see it. thx~

they say, time heals. i say it does not. time only turn things stagnant. mosquitoes fly all round it, sucking blood as time passed.
wat i would say is, try to calm down after a shock. gather and muster all ure choices/steps. then ignore what others say (cos 1stly its ure problem isnt it?) next, ask around ure dearest ones (probably ure closest kins) for extra help/steps/features.
hmm, wat can i say, when a person is sad, he/she must decide how long they wanna remain like that before plucking up courage to go on. nope, time does not heal. its "u" who is willing to giveup/takeon this challenge.
time heals when u decide to heal ureself. so.. conclusion of this paragraph is that, time does not do anything at all. its up to us/you/him/her/me/she/he/them/they/we to decide when to stand and move on.
possible steps - take a sleep. best of all. wake up fresh and decide ure step. write down ure possible movements from the problem. when u actually write down, u will feel a sense of satisfaction that ure actually doing something about it. *thumbs up*

oh yes while searching for meaningful stuff here's one interesting funny one-
Women need a reason to have sex. Men just need a place.

well, incase i might hurt some sensitive nerves somewhere, for the 85% of the post, its meant to encourage everyone to stand up. at least thats wat i meant. ;D

ah yes. its going to rain heavily now. *curses hey why dun rain when im sleeping!?!

and for the few consecutive days!!! i've been woken up by sms! RAGH!
i've only slept for 3hours when *bruuu bruuu* i should have offed the stupid phone grr! >:{
almost couldnt sleep after tat cos i knew that miaoying is gonna sms me again. yea.. i can sense clement is going to bother me about her again lol.

and well done clement! u ate chicken fantastic w/o "complimenting" it.
the lor mai gai rice burger with chicken and lack of mayo?

zinger is really very stingy. the piece of meat is about the size of my 3.5fingers in width. couldnt even keep my eyes off the measly fare. but oh well, its an promotion of some superstar set meals.
mummiee ate the bandito pocket. well, the meal consists of alot of dif burgers with whipped potato + coleslaw and drink and 1 lucky-drawy-scratchy-it-yourself card. kinda worth 4.50 not bad a deal. BETTER THAN MACDONNY!!! who keeps having ads about fantastic burgers.. where it isnt nice at all.

oh YES! suddenly rmbed some choir members msged me too. telling there is another concert for cca week this coming.. 3-4weeks time? urgh wat else besides practice again?
seriously, im giving it serious thoughts about whether to go on joining choir. the fun and stress mixed feelings. its an arduous journey but yet alot of ppl to meet too. the fun to complain about practices together as well lol. but!!!! am i willing to undertake the 1 year journey full and thru? cos i wouldnt wan to quit halfway. it just isnt me.

Isnt me.

encountered lots of stuff during these few days. but mainly nth much worthy to mention.
there is this foodcourt/restaurant at boonlay shopping center 2nd floor. we went there just now for dinner. the food is nice and spacious but NOT ENOUGH TABLES.
not to forget to mention valerie won against an uncle, chess match. at some void deck lol.

dad have been buggering me about running/gym/swimming to prepare for NS. urgh. laziness rules in me. if not i've already been like some wrestler given my size.
or rather, im too self-conscious. i kinda envy those plump ppl (even though not pretty) when they swim cos they arent self-conscious while i do. lack of confidence for my part i suppose.
arent able take the 1st step i suppose. (if only after NS perhaps i will be able to step out of my shell and able to confidently officially find a gf)

many the case where ugly guys got pretty gfs. which actually (me and clement *muahaha we are same league*) envy. on our part, i suppose we just lack the confidence to actually accept others or maybe we are too choosy? as we always believe that God will give us the best one later on.

there is this thing i found out pretty interesting: a person with sharp tongue and a person with blunt words. see the similarity and irony? lol

for the many times ppl keep mentioning! hey moses.. ure 18 isnt it?
OK! IM EIGHTEEN! raghhhhhh
leave my age alone!! i feel so old playing games when ppl ask wats my age. then they would expect 13-16 then pop out a 18yearold MONSTROUS FREAK!!!! i can sense their laughter/disgust behind their monitors

well, results are out.
didnt score pretty well. *jealous of shuping* she got a DISTinction raghhhhhh but am still glad cos i did improve in my results though i got a D+ for java-based module.
JAVA!! the word is terrorising citizens young and old. threatens young sprouts from dying from programming. destroys moods as well as health hazardous to humans as well as all living things.

but tinking again, the poor one is norman. he did much for that java but he got same grade as me :/ well same for his IAD. he only got B+ while shuping got dist. well, its obviously he did more work than me+her combined. but sigh, rumors has it that dora is bias to students :X:X shall not further elaborate.

really, is 18yearold really OLD TO PLAY GAME? i dun really expect much from my age going out to work. i got youth ok. and sadly its wasting away.

BUILD YOUR OWN PERSONAL COMPUTER (DIY PC) A
3D GAME DEVELOPMENT A
ESSENTIALS OF MARKETING B
INTERNET APPLICATIONS DEVELOPMENT B
SIMULATION AND PHYSICS B
PRINCIPLES OF CREATIVE GAME DESIGN C
MOBILE GAMES AND EDUTAINMENT PROGRAMMING D+ (cursed java)
disclaimer, kindly do not copy paste and send to everyone ty.

lol i really got this.. secret hope in me that since daniel is same java group as me, he might get D+ as well~ imagine A A A A A A D+
LOLOLOLOL

1st thing 1st. felt kinda sad u noe.
sometimes we dun appreciate things given to us free.
eg. mummiee cooking lunch for me (marcaroni in speg sauce) well, she have work-shift on afternoon today so she even specially made lunch for me and sis. even with soup. happily we ate w/o thinking.
next time i noe is that she even called me during my *sleep* in the afternoon, so i was kinda fustrated since i do not sleep in the nights. and just gave her the... ya la ya la kinda stuff when she reminded me there are leftovers marcaroni in the pot.
so happily again i forgot. :/
next i told daddee who is buying dinner back. he suggested getting 1 spring chicken then we share with the marcaroni.
the thing is this: i felt really sad when i saw the rubbish bin with some of mummiee's cooked marcaroni. meaning, dad did not finish it yet finished the chicken. well.. i ate it for dinner too.

nonetheless though the chicken is sure better tasting but its all hardwork hey! and it isnt really disgusting or wat. got standard de. and it isnt everyday she cooked. perhaps once a week u noe.

therefore, to those ppl whose mum cook food, dun hesitate to say "thanks mummiee!" cos there will be a time where ure married/overseas/etc where u will miss homecooked food. and u will find mummiee better than some wife who couldnt cook much dishes :D

really though. when things happen, then we learn. as seen in anime Naruto, there are ppl who are hardworking and ppl who are genius. for this case, there are ppl who only LEARN thru mistakes, while some can learn from ppl's experience. identify ureself from these cases. learn to make full use of ureself.

its a tiring sunday as usual.

felt kinda nub when ppl are talking about things and im trying to catch it quietly in 1 corner and trying to figure/remember it. example is today's MTG play deck time.
didnt noe at least 80% of the guys those ppl are saying. oh well, im not that good either.

anyone who says ure ugly is insulting the creation of God as ure made in his likeness.
so be kind to add 2 quotes to the word pretty..if u noe wat i mean *coughcough*

a little tired of my poor bandit :/
i dunnoe but its so stress to play it. lvl lvl lvl. i just wanna get out of this lvling zone and do some serious fun stuff.
kinda miss sokpeng. lol the days of not bullying her makes me kinda tired in the morning.

sigh, sometimes i had to say i understand girls more than guys.

SLACK.

the biggest most common word now in my dictionary *claps claps*
no one ever knew how much this thing infiltrated my life this holiday. ah yes tml's the cursed Aqua Road patch in maple.
*curses it* why come out such lame thing though cute. i wan LUDIBRIUM! yeah that one is the new WORLD where high lvls go. leaving me (mid-high lvl) alone and give us some space!

any pc users will noe the keyboard... is the MOST BACTERIAL-infested place in ure room. its worse than some corners with bats and spiders and thick dust which is thicker than my skin :D
take some detergent and clean the keys - this helps in aiding to destroy bacterial. if no one believes me, try licking all the keys in ure keyboard and see whether u will get tummyache next day :X:X

went out with sokpeng, norman, peggie, kl, fufu, bin, feng for dinner at ZhenFa live seafood.
the one at marina bay of cos.
the food is kinda sucky cos they didnt have much beef!! only 1 type of beef there. and the meat are all kinda simple. not like at ChongPang where they gives satay mutton, chicken, pork, beef.
Chongpang even gives green bean soup and sharkfin soup.
zhenfa only gives SALTISH stuff omg. my liver suffered serious critical dmg worse than urza's rage. i drank 3 litres of water just for tat ocassion. im serious that though im full but my tongue thirsts for water.
oh well, wont be visiting such places for at least another 6 months.

somehow i missed school. but my holidays isnt just done yet!!
Its only just begun.